Does my life contains only pain ?

my name is sagar mehta , i m 17 years old , i have big dreams and never want to live ordinary life . actually I also want to enjoy like other teenagers do , i also want to go to abroad , you know all my wishes were never fulfilled. my father is a drunkard , when i was at the gae of 12 , he started drinking and fighting with me and family . he fights and Spat only with me , just like he is of my age , he never showed that he is my father , i always keep my father hiding , whenever my friends come at home as he is drunk. he also don't do any work . i also went for many jobs , but they didn't give me job. Actually all the responsibility of Home is on me , i Passed 10 th with very difficulty , as he always create a mess in day and night . at night People come and say me to bring your father from the wine shop , he is laying down here and there , i always remain tensed in waiting when he will come or i will have to go to find him and take him home. we are from good family but don't know from where my father ... he is like enemy to me . at the same , when i see my cousin life , it's awesome , they are rich and he is living in new zealand , this thing make me feel sad not jealous , because i also want to live. I just have faced pain only . when i was 13 , 15 , 16 or so , i just only lived this similar life only Little bit of change. but i am only living on this thought that god has given me a talent , i can sing in different ways like opera , les miserables , nick jonas , blues boys .. i am just living on my dream that i will become a singer in my life and will live a good life of no tension . i can hardly do my further studies. these things makes me to ask you my future in astrological way .. My name - Sagar Mehta (M) , birth - 13 August 1993 , time- 2:50 pm , Place - Amritsar , Punjab . I believe that i will be a good singer and have unique talent of makind different male and female singers. but i don't know whether i will make my dream come true or what will be my destiny .. please tell me what will be my future ?